So, it's been a while ⏰

Where do I even begin? A lot has happened since my last post and I'm going to fill in on the ghetto-ness of my life that took place in my impromptu absence.

I ended a 15 year friendship after it came to my attention that the individual and their family had been speaking ill of me over the years, unbeknownst to me. Ironically, this came after a visit to see one of unsaid family members. Once I had the infomation that was voluntarily admitted to me I was stunned, but I was not surprised. After the call ended, I contemplated on what to do, if I should confront anyone and thought to myself, "nah." So I didn't. 🤷🏽‍♀️

As the weeks went on, I kept getting incessant FaceTime calls from the same number, but I didn't recognize. For the record, I don't know anyone's number by heart except my own. Anyway, I would not answer I would let it ring. Eventually, whoever it was stopped calling. I have a feeling I know who it was to this day, but will never have confirmation. Fast forward ⏩ I was blocked on everything even though I did absolutely nothing wrong. This was August 2023.

Fall 2023 at TSU began, it was the start of an uneventful semester. I spent the holidays in NOLA 🎭 and that was that.

2024 was the year I decided I was going to take my YouTube to the next level. I was planning out weekly videos and using iMovie to edit. I made some progress for sure. February I was invited to NYC during Fashion Week for the College Fashionista event, The Creator's Loft. I was lucky enough to follow along with a model friend of mine where I was able to hit 3 fashion shows, meet the designers and make some amazing content. 📸 This was also the year I decided to make my eBook reality and with a help a dear friend, she designed it for me and it is due to hit the market this Spring.

Quite literally one of the best weeks of 2024. During this week I met designers who loved my content making so much that a few followed me and many wanted me to send what I created to them. I was invited back to NYC in May for the release of a coffee table book and got to see some old friends in the process.

Me and my bestie of 16 years and counting decided this was our year to take mini trips around the US. We found the cutest BNB in the Chicago suburb. I flew in, she drove from Ohio and we had a ball. Deep dish pizza, the silver bean, Michigan Ave, the river? AMAZING! We had also planned on going to Georgia because I wanted to see the set of the Vampire Diaries, San Fransisco and D.C.

My Spring semester ended I turned 31 and went to go to Lisbon 🇵🇹 with part of my Belize gang in late May. We went with EF Ultimate Break and once again had the time of our lives. This was our reunion trip, and if you ask me, we are due for another one like ASAP! If my friends see this, just know I miss you!

Ok now for the deep stuff.. *takes deep breath* 😮‍💨

After all the exciting things from bringing in the new year in NOLA to moving into a new unit, NYFW, Chicago, and a trip to Lisbon, I sank. June came around and I begin to feel the familiar "New Moon" feeling, IYKYK. My job had sent out the schedule for the month and I had never recieved it so when i went to sign on for some shifts they were all filled. I was not able to pick up a shift and was broke the rest of the month. July rolled around and I tried to catch up, but all the plans I had with my bestie fell through and I was miserable. In conjuction with a lot of other things, I called the hotline. Yeah. 😪

*DISCLAIMER: If you or someone you know is struggling with thoughts of harming yourself or suicide, call 988 ☎️ *

Now that the heavy it out of the way, one of my friends saved me and I let her know every chance I get on just how she did. I was down in the dumps I was drowning and I saw not light no end to suffering. She planned a trip to see me in May but I called her to tell her I don't have any money to spare and quite honestly I don't have the mental capacity for a visit. She came anyway, and it was like someone cued Evanescence "Wake Me Up" and I was then again present in life again. We drove to the museums I never saw, (I actually live here) food places she never had, karaoke bars and sang our hearts out! 🎙️ She met my other friends we went out and ended up eating Waffle House (her first time trying) on the North side of Houston at like 3AM. I felt like a teenager all over again. The best comparison I can think of is the movie The Perks of Being a Wallflower when Charlie said, "In this moment I swear, we are infinite." ✨

I got a lot of PR from brands last year, eventually started Fall 2024, spent Thanksgiving in NOLA again and me with the help of my older sister managed to device a plan that would have all 5 of children in the same room for the first time since 2019 for Christmas 2024. It was a hit! My videos went viral on 3 apps and they can still be viewed. It was a joyous event. 🫂

Hampton, VA - December 2024

It was a turbulent year, but somehow it leveled out a bit. I'm grateful. I didn't lose anything I needed. My eBook is finished and will be out this year. I am moving into my own place no roomate this March. I'll be visiting Bali this June. Life is so unpredictable. 🤨