Dear diary,

I just got back from an amazing trip in Southeast Asia. I spent 10 days in Bali, Indonesia and it was nothing short of amazing. The food, the culture, literally all the experience was nothing short of amazing. I see what Eat, Pray, Love was all about.

I saw a shaman who told me that I am suspicious person and that it is not a good thing because it can get in the way of my career. I was also told that I do not have to worry about my career. My family comes from spirtual guides and healers. My husband is not far and will come from the inner circle because he is a distant relative and that did not sit right with my initally. I still don't exactly know how I feel about that, honestly.

I find my life to be unsatisfactory and have yet to figure out why. I wonder if God is disappointed in me or feels that I am being ungrateful. I know that I am blessed but I find myself back at my RBF default setting in life and I just have not found a way to permanently shake it off. Summertime sadness is a real thing, thank you Lana Del Rey.

School starts back up next month and I can do is sigh as I realize it's almost over and that I am taking a huge pay cut. Everything is online which I am happy about so I don't have to go on campus.

I was offered a part-time job through my internship with the client we service. It's cool and I think this could be great. I now have 3 part-time jobs as a full-time student.

I've been reading my books and currently is reading 2 at once. I truly love the escapism.

I joined two dating apps and in vain. I don't know what I was thinking really. There hasn't been anything I seen on either app. *SIGHS* I think I'm burned out of making my own content and seeing others, but have no issue making it for others IF IT PAYS. I told myself I was no longer doing free labor and well I stood on that.

My business is non-existent and maybe I should just dismantle my LLC at this point. I have made no sales and it's costing to run an online store monthly.

Seems like I'm complaining? Maybe I am.